It was just another day where i woke up for college
Yet did i know my knowledge was soon to be abolished
By some kids on the bus talking bout these drugs
They tried on the weekend and how the rush made them feel insane
Injected in their veins, made them feel at ease
Any remorse and pain once felt, disappeared like snow as it melts
Asking me if id come to some party friday night so i agreed
Preparing throughout the week making sure that i kept it free
Making sure i was my best dressed to try and impress
As soon as i arrived kids were out smoking weed
Walked into the house and instantly got offered speed
A little rush to ease the pain? how bad can it be
Yet i declined and carried on the night simply
Until i met up with the kids from the bus as they approached me
They asked me if i tried this certain kinda drug to which i said no
And before i could get out the next words they said

"for 2 pills gimme £20 and we got us a deal"

So i passed over the note, a small clear plastic bag was given
And as i went to place the pills in my mouth hoping the pain would be ridden
A sudden screech by the dealer

"as much as i gave you these pills i ain't a killer
Half at a time and you should be fine just take it slow and check how you're feelin"


So i split it in half and placed it into my mouth
Prayed up to the skies as i swallowed it down
After 30 seconds there was no pain to be found
I fucking loved the feeling so another one down
Forgetting what i was told all i could remember is this feeling
Almost like being given a bunch of gold, both the pills were gone
So i asked the guy if anymore were being sold
The guy rushed me to the back as he examined my face
Pupils built like the moon moving like they on a race
I was looking like a fucking disgrace
Until i couldn't feel a thing
I dropped to the floor
I couldn't move no more
No feeling in my body
Every ounce of my soul disappearing
Thoughts filling my brain the fear of death
That was the only thing that made sense to be next
Ambulance on the line asking if i was fine
Telling us not to worry and they will soon arrive
Got my girl by my side
Tears filling her eyes
Looking at me then up to the sky screaming

"GOD WHY"

As the sound turns to a blur im stuck reminiscing
On the life i will be missing
Cause i have no fucking self control
Got caught up on a feeling and now
There is no meaning to my life
As my skin turnt cold and my body seperated from my soul
I realised now i was going to be all alone
Put me in a grave before i become enslaved to a world of rehab
Were im checked on to be sure that im not going to be
A victim to these drugs again, all these thoughts fucking with my brain
Its creating more pain
Blue lights appeared at the scene
Ambulance and police filled the streets
They came rushing in and and attached all these machines to my body
None of them feeling sorry for the pain i had induced to myself
Then the police screamed can the dealer come out before we arrest everyone else
So there they stood the two guys from the bus awaited to be taken in
Where they would beaten by the jurisdiction as they recieved a conviction
A life sentence in prison for destroying another life
Now isnt that crazy one night ruined 3 minds
2 alive whilst the other one stay lifeless
Unable to witness what was going on almost as if he were blind
Not used to feeling regret but for this i would rewind...