Ratatat
How to Be Alone
[Verse one]

All I want to do is hold you
Just one last time
I guess I’m so alone without you, baby
So alone without you, right
All I want to do is hold you
Just one last time
I guess I’m so alone without you, baby
So alone without you
I’m sitting alone in my room all by myself
On my third L, getting too high
With nothing but my memories
And a five-by-five picture to remember you by
I thought that we would always stand together
And withstand the weather
Fuck what the mirror says
But I guess I was mistaken
I’m trying to clear my head but the tears I’ve shed
Are only making me falter
No longer is my body sixty percent water
Every day you grow farther and farther away
And that number gets smaller
I’m finding it hard to concentrate
Or focus on anything but you
I get much too irate
Mentally I contemplate how many more times one heart can break
Before it can’t be fixed
I remember it like it was yesterday
When we realized that things had been going downhill for months
And they probably wouldn’t ever change
Left your place and we went our separate ways
I walked home and balled up my fists
But the second I got to my apartment:
“Shit”
It hit me like a wall of bricks
And I realized

[Chorus]

I just want to hold you one last time
It don’t bother me
Baby girl, you’re still a part of me
But I just want to hold you one last time
It don’t bother me
Baby girl, you’re still a part of me

[Verse two]

Why is life such a puzzling thing to me
When all the other people I see
Walk around with a sense of happiness so bubbly
As they mingle, free
All I do is look at them with sadness as the tears start
Knowing that I’ll never have the traits that they possess
Or the will to fear God
Got a distant relationship with the people I know
But that shit don’t hurt
Because every day is a constant struggle when you live in the world of an introvert
When you see no advancement
Just the occasional flashing moments
When you can possess all but the most basic of human interaction
But this ain’t no Delta blues
And this ain’t no breakup song
Like the ones that perpetuate how everything went wrong
And how you can’t move on
‘cause I’ve had a lot of time to think
And it took three years for the pain to pass
But in retrospect, we were just very different people, Lindsey
It’s as simple as that
Started getting my grind on
Started making that music again
Started looking at the world through a whole new lens
And today I’m a brand new man
But with that being said
It doesn’t mean I don’t still love you to death
It means that I’ve traded that love that I had
In exchange for life and her beauty instead

[Chorus]