Procession of questions
Confession:
I was less than the devil you invented
Septic, susceptible
Why pretend to know?
We learn more when a warm heart
Turns cold
So I let the darkness flow
Made it a part of my own
Alone
I slowly transformed
Crawled into a walk
Approaching closer to the door
Heard the knock but didn't open it
You chose the road less fortunate
We'd go to war for many reasons
None of them the least bit easy to understand
Reflecting on the past
You tried to fit me in your gaps
I was exhalted to your highest honor
Yeah, as a hangman
Climbing to fall farther
How else would I untie the rope?
Asphyxiating my throat
It became erotic
Strangulation no longer symbolic
Thoughts of your mother and father
Prolonging the promise of stopping this haunted nightmare
Fear would hold you tight bedside
And watch me while you cried your tears
It was not fair
I was the fog in the mirror
Wanted to be there, honest and sincere
Not to play the role of your pallbearer
Truly the closest I would ever hold you
Genuinely
But only while the pendulum swings
The venomous sting of reality
Set itself in to do battle with me
Injecting a shadow
Cast upon my masterpiece
I doubted release
Escape was momentary
Emboweled our dreams
Another soul to bury
Barely
As I crept through the cemetery
Within moments of my second step
Your ghost has strangely saw me staring
You were on to me
This was obvious
Both of us trapped
Wandering yet coffinless
This is why I could never leave
Somebody died, but was it you or me?
Neither one of us are really free
Instead confined to miserable conditions
No help in sight
The hell inside
Our lonely physician
Predisposed to premonition
The reason why I smile at your image
Every night it's so nice of you to visit
I can see you in the distance
I was always watching
It's just that I was listening
For your heart instead of logic
I've got a problem scarring deep
I'm sorry
I'm honestly morbid
And constantly falling
In making up for it
We all must bleed before letting go
I tasted you
Soft I ate
Like parts of me were made to chew
Between my teeth
I tried to hold our truth
So I pried you loose
Inch by inch
Tooth by tooth
We were both too abusive
Love was only for control
Really, like two cannibals are compatible
We weren't full on feeding night
You weren't feeling right
Your ego needed a new soul
I caught you eating mine
Gnawing through my bones
You wanted more to stay alive
I auditioned for the role
But the movie came to life
Couldn't keep them seperate
I was desperate
Found in doubt a weak intent
Was second guessing
Every message now
I let you live as an angel
Though your home was heavenless
The subtle wind from the north
Begins my severance
Your medicine was slow
But overtook my nervous fluid
Electrically our love was lost
And looked upon as conduit
For there were much greater forces
You enjoyed to hide
Overly proud to cut my silver cord
Leaving me behind
I no longer try to find a reason
And I'll never be okay
That's why those roses wilted
When you left them at my grave
Sent me spiraling to depths I now admire
I don't know if I should thank you, hate you?
Replace or hang you
Higher?
Balance the equation
Or forget it altogether?
Erase mistakes
Reject the pictures
And not send this letter?
You presented me, my fall
My friend, we found the end
It was in that hour it began