[Verse 1]
I'm trying to survive these strange days
This life can be such an adventure
The world stands before my eyes
Wilder than it has ever been
I forgot these old memories of youth
That were caught right under the surface
Forgot these souvenirs of you
That were calling back the pain

[Chorus]
I never felt happy somehow
But I'm trying, I'm trying the best I can
I really wanna feel happy sometimes
Really wanna know where the lights are
But it only feels so wrong
It's eating me alive

[Verse 2]
I never know how to shorten the distance
Between my heart and my head
'Cause through my eyes, the days are monochrome
I wanna feel the light of a new day
But I'm so scared of it all...
I'm scared this utter joy ain't lasting forever
It's eating me alive
[Bridge]
It's eating me alive

[Chorus]
I never felt happy somehow
But I'm trying, I'm trying the best I can
I really wanna feel happy sometimes
Really wanna know where the lights are
But it only feels so wrong
It's eating me alive

[Outro]
I'm trying to survive my feelings
The joy is the ghost of a wanderer
Lost somewhere outside of here
Counting every hour