[Intro]
Chef J

[Verse 1]
I cross my T's and dilate my eyes
I live with her in mind
They say, "Livin' life is free," I'll have to deny
'Cause everyday I pay the price
I wake up feelin' like last night was a wild car ride
Welcome to the fast life
I pop these, watch how the time flies
Outer-space, black skies lookin' like sci-fi
But that's only half of me
That's only half of me, that's one side
But don't be sad with me
And don't feel bad for me, it's alright

[Chorus]
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Tryin' to kill my hunger, yeah
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Tryin' to kill my hunger

[Verse 2]
Percocets, nicotine, red promethazine
Good sex, fast cars, I'd crash anythin'
That is a smoke screen, none of those things make me happy
Sold my soul, now I can buy anythin'
Sad but I'm not a bitch, don't try anythin'
'Cause I'll kill gladly, that's the only thing that make me happy
Turn the frown off when the racks in
Ain't no fentanyl up in my xans
If I could end all of the withdrawals
I would, but sadly, I can't
Thinkin' back, it probably started with the Vyvanse
Now I'm starin' at Oxycontin in my hand
Rehab'll only ruin my plans
On the bright side, I'm makin' progression
I was takin' four, now I'm takin' one less
'Til I drop the codeine in the Sunkist
Said, "Fuck it," grabbed the pint and poured the whole shit
[Chorus]
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Tryin' to kill my hunger, yeah
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Tryin' to kill my hunger

[Verse 3]
I will give you advice, but I don’t condone it
See I am a loner, I don’t know why
They tell me that I should slow down on substance, but I don’t listen
Cause if I go out it’s gon’ be flyin'
If I go out it’s gon’ be fine
If I check out girl, you’ll be fine
Will you think about me in the meantime?
If I check out girl I’ll be fine
If I OD girl I’ll be fine
If I OD girl you’ll be fine
Think about me in the meantime
I feel my body shuttin' down
I’m a tickin' time-bomb
That’s the type shit that I’m on
I feel my heart slowin' down
I’m a tickin' time-bomb
That’s the shit that I’m on
Gotta say goodbye to my mom
Sell my belongings, I won’t be here for too long
Did too many wrongs, yeah
Gotta say goodbye to my mom
I been here too long, I’ve done too many wrongs
Sell all my clothes
If I die tonight, just know I ain’t sell my soul
Walkin' towards the light, and I let it take control
Oh no, steps to an over-dose
Just another kid from the projects
But I’m not no ordinary project kid
I make you fit in for a casket
Then I fall into the blackness
As I blackout, in the darkness
Drive the car, crash it don’t park it
Baby girl, don’t get me started
Too many Xans, I feel retarded, huh
Take my life is like takin' out the garbage
Like takin' out the trash
I know they wanna uh uh
Allow me to update my status
Allow me to tell you I’m fine, when I’m lyin'
Yeah, yeah, I’m so insecure, I don’t have a cure
I’m so insecure, I’m sick without of cure
Will I be cool? I don’t know, no I’m not so sure
I think I’ve crossed the line, I walk into the light
The devil wants my life, he may get a piece tonight
No sacrifice, I’m choosin' sides
Crisis, crosses, I’m exhausted, I know [?]
N***as that be double crossin’
Give a fuck about that though, I’m exhausted
Poppin’ Mollies ‘till I OD, in a coffin
Mama said these drugs gon’ kill me
I’ll wait, I’ll wait
Have a date with destiny
I’m late, I’m late
Yeah I know they love me
But I hate, I hate, I hate, I hate
I tell ‘em I may kill myself, and I would deny for the news
Just with the lean, pour a deuce
Just with the Percs, more than two
That’s how I feel, how ‘bout you?
Not in my feels, not in the least
I’m off the pills, I’m chasin' thrills
Bitch in my sheets, we barely met
We on those xans, I love the sex
I feel like yes, uh, uh, uh
My brain is so gone
I’m lost, I’m so gone
Between the rock, and a hard place
Hide the drugs, in the crawl-space
In the rug, I don’t know where is the love? Someone tell me
Where's the love? Someone help me
Where’s the love? She told her “help me”
Fall in love, told me “help me”
Fall in love, she told me “help me”
Let’s talk about drugs, I’m too attached
I begged, i beg, for my heart back
They told me that they can’t do that
I [?] move around too much, keep my bags packed
Buy new clothes everywhere, spendin’ them racks
If I spend it them I know ima make it back
If I spend it, best believe ima make the shit back
They watch me bleed, and watch me leave
Don’t know what’s gotten in-to me
My life’s so interestin'
I hide my insecurities with new clothes
Double G, i put it on my wardrobe
Keep it on me, if you want, we go to war, hoe
Kobe Bryant in the fourth, imma score, hoe, aye
All I know is, count it up, count it
Uh, all I know is cry it out, leave it, dry it out, keep it
Vibe, I don’t wanna fuck, then it’s not my vibe
She gon’ give me top, baby that’s my vibe
Aye, that’s my vibe, bury me alive, kill all the drugs, social suicide
I got money, now I’m walkin' to the bank, then I laugh yeah
Please don’t touch my Fendi, Fendi
You don’t worry about touchin' Raf
Tell me in ad-, tell me in advanced, do you got a man?
Do you fuck with drugs? Do you do the Xans?
I been in the Percs, now I’m in a trance
I was up in hell, devil tryna dance
He don’t know me well, he still took a chance
Had to sell my soul, did it for the bands
Now I’m takin' trips, talkin' ‘bout the ‘Shrooms
Then I take a trip, talkin' ‘bout to France
Just to buy some pants, Gucci on the bag, souvi’ on my ass
Ion gotta sag, Revenge on my body, I do that a lot
I get that for free, don’t look at the tags
May drop a colab
If you’re lost, my advice to you is not to fall for the same things that she does
I don’t feel right, I don’t feel right
I don’t even know if ima be fine
I'll be gettin' high in the mean time
Up all night, sleep through the sunshine
It’s a full moon tonight (moonlight)
Fuck dancin’, die in the moonlight, yeah
[Chorus]
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Tryin' to kill my hunger, yeah
Addictions remind me of the summer
'Mind you, I was younger
Tryin' to kill my hunger