I wanted to be sure
Of horizons in my window, big and clear
And the sun still making singing in my ear
But I forgot the wall is always there

And now I sit in idle blankness
And a stillness I can't take
So I begin to think in figures instead of beauty that we've made
And beauty's gone

A liar spit in my ear
And it turned me into nothing, just worms and fear
The lie became my body, every pore
As puddles form beneath me, acid sore

And where is joy among these pieces
That we scream into the space?
Where is my gentle reason
And the light within my cave?
Where have you been?

I want to know the quiet
Of its voice before the screams
Just sitting in the silence
And waiting, waiting
Where is my light?
Not blue, but green and quiet, in my mind?