Londrelle
Pastel Pain
You know, people will always express
That they never meant to
After they hurt you
But their actions always prove
That they had the intent to
And that makes you question everything that you've ever been through
Has anything they ever said been true
How many times have
They ever went against you
When the relationship went bad who did they vent to?
These are the questions you
Ask yourself when it really hits you
And then you start to feel resentful
Because you know you've always been faithful and eventually you will break up but never let it break you
Just be grateful
The universe has saved you
It's okay to sit alone and
Be deep in your feelings
Know that this life is about you
You just have to find a reason to live it
Mnd not expect people to get it
Maybe for once you should try lovin' you
Before you cake up
And wake up with another dude
And a few months later
He tries to cut you loose
And start looking for another you
You see, a part of you wants to go back
The other half wants to be alone
But nobody but you can heal your pain
So maybe alone is where you belong
'How dare you embarrass me like that on the radio today!'
'Gina it's my job to talk that way. You know I don't mean any of it baby.'
'I mean you better not because if you believe all that macho, frat crap you spat out on the radio today, you don't respect me or the relationship.'
'Gina how can you say that. You know I respect you.'
'Then you go out there and you tell your friends what's real.'

I hope that one day you realize all the love that you're lookin' to find
Already exists within you but you just haven't tookin' the time
To see past the pain in your reflection and try lookin' inside
Self-love is the best love
You just have to be willing to put in the time
Maybe you're feelin' the pain because things aren't really the same
But how do yo expect to do better if you're not willin' to change
Embrace all of your feelings
And stop living in pity and shame
I mean sometimes the sun dies
And even sunflowers have to sit in the rain
Then drown

'Respect me in private, but not in public?'
'Gina'
'Fine, it's over Martin'
'Woah, woah, woah, woah, woah, woah, you makin' me laugh. You gonna break up with me because of what I do on the radio?'
'No. Because of what you do to me on the radio.'
'Damn it Gina. Now I'm mad.'
I'm sorry for expressing feelings you had to cry to
I know you wanna get back to the old you and play trap music on your iTunes
I never met you, but I know everything about you
You say that the truth hurts, but it's not worse that being lied to
If you don't grow in love, I guess that's the price that you're willing to pay
Shufflein' through your playlist and all you listen to is Londrelle, Drake, and Sade
I guess you be feelin' a way
You still have to recognize your worth before you give it away
And please don't give it to somebody who deserves minimum wage

'You don't get it. There's a child in you Gina. [?] I'm a man. This is child's play I'm a man Gina. You won. You won baby.'
'I won?'
[?]

Maybe you're that rose that grew from concrete and humble beginnings
Never truly recognizing your worth
Because you had your fun and your feelings
Until a personal relationship that always seemed to come with some limits
And even though a man may encounter hundreds of women
He should always see you as one in a million
I'm sorry for expressing feelings you had to cry to
I know you wanna get back to the old you and play trap music on your iTunes
If you don't grow in love, I guess that's the price that you're willing to pay
Shufflein' through your playlist and all you listen to is Londrelle, Drake, and Sade
I guess you be feelin' a way