Indecision

Wasting my time wasting away

Wasted four long years just to claim I'm okay

The question remains

Is it still all for me

Running in circles

Am I in the right the place





Bloodshot eyes

Ringing in my ears

Swollen throat afraid to speak on all my fears

I made a pact to be honest

So it's time to speak up

Rip my thoughts into pieces

Pick apart my skull

Please tell me what I've done wrong

I can't do this on my own



I am complacent

Familiar with failure

Feet stuck in the sand

So quick to let go of the things I love

A past that haunts me

A future I'm avoiding

Always looking back trying to fight the fact that this was never the plan





No one deserves to live like this

Penniless and without a purpose

The life I lead hasn't meant a thing

I wouldn't miss me if I were gone



Spreading myself thin

Lost in the shuffle

I am indecision

Wrapped up in skin

Giving in is a common theme I continue to dissolve

Outside myself

My own thoughts a common thief stealing every piece of my resolve





I am familiar with failure

You are no stranger to reminding me

My life is a fleeting moment

Just one big missed opportunity





I am terrified to die

Because my life has yet to mean anything

Im making an effort to ignore the voice in my head

The chilling whisper of death

It never disappears