[Verse 1]
The sun is coming up, I'm on the fire escape
Dunno if it's early or if it's late, I don't know
Bleeding from the gash I put in my soul
Burying my thoughts and dig another hole

I don't believe in love
If this is what I run to instead of you
I don't believe in much
But this gets me through the night

[Chorus]
I don't wanna feel
But I can't get away from what is real
I don't wanna see
But I can't close my eyes, I can't run and hide
I can't stay inside here forever

[Verse 2]
Fumble through my bag and call a car to leave
Take another hit and hope it helps me breathe again
If one can do the trick then maybe 2 or 3
Can take me anywhere that I don't have to think so long

I don't believe in God
But I can feel the love from her eyes
Right now
I don't believe I'm lost
Just always running away
[Chorus]
I don't wanna feel
But I can't get away from what is real
I don't wanna see
But I can't close my eyes, I can't run and hide
I can't stay inside here forever

[Bridge]
I am an island surrounded by waves that annihilate all of my strongest intentions to bury the fear and embrace every truth
But the current's relentless I'm pulled underwater and breathe in the lies till they've flooded my lungs and I try screaming out but I'm stuck in a dream I don't want to wake up from when life is a nightmare I'm better of numb
But I can't run forever
Then grace washes over me out of the darkness and light shines on every shadow I've cast on the walls that I've built in my soul and I hold on to hope that our love will explode
And I'll float away