Lil Xtra
Hole in My Soul, Pt. 2
[Verse 1: Pseudocurse]
Once again I was created to be cremated
Addictions gotten worse so I'm staying sedated
But it doesn't help with the problems I'm facing
There's a hole in my soul and I swear I'm not faking, aye
Please just change the station
We're on different wavelengths
We don't vibe at all so what the fuck you saying?
Stay sedated this is R rated depression's real
It's not a wave can't fucking fake it bitch
[Verse 2: Lil Xtra]
I’m done playing, staying sedated
Like what in the fuck is you saying?
My whole world is falling apart like a saiyan's invading my space
Death is the finish line I'm here to race
Don’t fucking judge me I'm pleading my cases
I know that I’m fucking abrasive I know that you hate it
But fuck I’m gon' say it, bitches be playing I can't fucking take it
Fading to grey, feel my soul incinerate
Depression becoming my permanent state
Only thing helping is getting these plays
And I Haven’t felt good since the sixth fucking grade
‘Less I’m staying faded my bad steady breaking
Skyler get off of my dick I’m not playing
Do what I can for my family they can’t fucking stand me
But I got these steps that I’m taking
I'ma stay on my lonesome wholesome
Never been the way with a heart so frozen
Midas touched me now I’m golden
Call me newton cause I’ve been chosen
I Haven’t felt good in a while I’m not hurting anyone
Don’t have to smile
Downward the spiral until I expire
I'm dropping this fire like my name was Spyro
Now every single day I’m getting asked why it’s working
All I gotta say's you gotta put the Work in
Fuck these lil rappers that I'm mercing
I could have a billion plays and I would still feel worthless
So tell me was it worth it?
Went and switched up yourself so they’d think you're perfect
How I got a fan, one single person
I don’t know, no I don’t deserve this
[Verse 3: Pseudocurse]
Flipping the switch 'cause I'm worthless
I'll say it again, I was born with no purpose
My life isn't urgent your love isn't worth it
I hate everything I am yes I am certain
My heart has been hurting there's no cure for this shit
Can't really tell if I hate that bitch
My life's a mistake and that's just how it is
I'll rot in the trees and drown in the abyss
Well I'm fucking done nothing fucking works
Tried but it made shit worse
Lost my mind and my self-worth
And I wish you knew how bad this hurts
Now I'm back on the dope again
Still hang around with the same shitty friends
Been waiting patiently to see your face again
But fuck this shit I don't want to make amends