[Verse 1]
On the run from myself
But the drugs didn't help
Getting numb to a void
All the pain that we felt
Some were lost in the future, some in the past
All we had was each other, but we knew it wouldn't last
'Cause all my homies have a good reason
Some knew [?]
Say I'm fine but no one believes it
I know that they're gone but I can still feel it
I was numb to the bone in the crowd all alone
Getting sick of my life, getting high just to cope
And my plans fall to piеces, heart turns to stone
Rеquest my location, disconnect phone
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It's hard to separate facts from the fiction
It's hard to separate the drugs from addiction

[Chorus]
But I should've known better than
Thinking I was bigger than this
Reading my suicide letter when you find it
If you find it, I've been
A little better but
I'm holding it together just barely
You can return the sweater when you find it, if you find it
[Verse 2]
I have my back to the wall, everything was going wrong
Need to feel a little love, don't feel anything at all
Now I can't see a future, sick and I know it
We were trying to find ourselves getting lost in the void
I wish I could go back, give 'em all hope
I wish I could go back, tell 'em "go home"
Now I'm solo, not even a photo
How can you escape when your life is a background?
Now I'm lost in my head, leaving everyone on read
I can never get 'em out now, words I should've said
Now I don't have a future, can't stand the past
I just wanna see my friends but I'll never get 'em back
I just wanna see my friends but I'll never get 'em back

[Chorus]
But I should've known better than
Thinking I was bigger than this
Reading my suicide letter when you find it
If you find it, I've been
A little better but
I'm holding it together just barely
You can return the sweater when you find it, if you find it