[Verse 1]
Yeah
Yeah
I let you take over
I let you convince me
I cannot handle this sober
The demon that took my life with a knife to my throat but
I let you inside and lied to myself I ain’t stronger
Begging for help stupid as fuck
Damage I dealt playing victim but who would’ve thought
Killing myself with a bottle I couldn’t get enough
I let you win took my life I was begging for luck
I sold my soul for a good time
And with your assistance I can double up on six lines
Let my body [?] for the sixth time in three months
Couldn’t see it coming, I was too blind you were too soft
And you can never catch me calling who’s bluff
This is too much
Mind too blurry to even know what I’m running from
Tattoos [?] I’m sorry mom
Maybe it’s because I feel so alone, thought we were friends
Hold my hand, you were just taking me closer to the edge
That’s not who I am I feel so possessed by my fucking past
Begging all my friends for another chance, what about the last
Substance in my system I’m less depressed
I'm free at last
Then I sober up to the consequence of every act

[Hook]
What am I running from
Escaping all my failures
I’m just so sorry ma, I gotta see you later
What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off PatricKxxLee
I’m trynna find myself but he’s just lost at sea where could he be

What am I running from
Escaping all my failures
I’m just so sorry ma, I gotta see you later
What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off PatricKxxLee
I’m trynna find myself but he’s just lost at sea where could he be

Lost at sea where could you be
You can’t trust yourself so you can trust me
No no no no I gotta let go
No turning back I’m off that road
No no no no I gotta let go
I gotta let go
No no no no no no
No no no no no

[Verse 2]
You gotta kill the dark side to see the light at the end
Life is short then why wasting shit trynna pretend
See I don’t call on God asking for a hand he could lend
Carving the scars in my arm wait for a sign to be sent
Yuh
Mind in a straight jacket, fuck it I hate asking
I’m traumatised I hate my eyes and I can [?] past it
Fuck you natural cause of pain, never knock at the door
Just breaking in and leave you bloody all over the floor
Pressure between my ears, I live my life in fear
For inner peace and the release I do eleven years
I’m fading through this life
And even though I wouldn’t change a single thing
I swear on mine I wouldn’t live it twice
Don’t need your pity I’m in the pit with a fifty
[?] pulling the trigger, it’s me, fighting off inner demons
Just need a fucking reason, my mind committing treason
I am my enemy I fight to keep on breathing

[Hook]
What am I running from
Escaping all my failures
I’m just so sorry ma, I gotta see you later
What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off PatricKxxLee
I’m trynna find myself but he’s just lost at sea where could he be

What am I running from
Escaping all my failures
I’m just so sorry ma, I gotta see you later
What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off PatricKxxLee
I’m trynna find myself but he’s just lost at sea where could he be

Lost at sea where could you be
You can’t trust yourself so you can trust me
No no no no I gotta let go
No turning back I’m off that road
No no no no I gotta let go
I gotta let go
No no no no no no
No no no no no