[Verse 1]
Yeah Turn me up
And I hate that I can't live forever
Cause that's how long it would take me to get my shit together
And Lily told me she'll leave me, but only if I let her
I really thought this would be easy but it don't get no better
I told her I can't be involved cause I just quit my job
And I don't know how much it cost to find the shit we lost
And I spent so much time with you that I just miss my dogs
You was the drug to get me through and I still get withdrawals
See bae I think about the summer time 100 times a day
Before you had to move a couple 100 miles away
Before I had your mascara running down your face
I don't know if we was perfect or just in a perfect place
But yo I miss those moments
I know you need it but I just don't want it
I never knew that by you leaving I would get so lonely
But now I'm all messed up, yeah you hate it when I'm on that stuff
Go and get faded when the going gets tough

[Chorus]
Cause I'm afraid that if I'm sober I might notice that it's over
My heart is getting colder the farther I get from closure
Nothing lasts forever this was destined all along
I wonder where we'd be if I had never done you wrong
I wonder
Sometimes I wonder
Nothing lasts forever this was destined all along
I wonder where we'd be if I had never done you
[Verse 2]
And in my last hours, I reflect on all my past doubters
Knowing I got the last laugh they just laugh louder
Most people have heroes and they have cowards
Acting like they care about us till they have power
Words are just words they mean nothing to me
Don't just tell me baby come show I need something to see
Used to wear my heart on my sleeve but I was young and naive
I'll give you something to believe until you jump in my sheets
I'm so heartless, I hate all this
But I love you regardless, girl you flawless
Yeah you make me feel like real life is only a myth
Like how could something that I never had be something that I miss
You the only one I care about I really think we meant
And I use these songs to air it out cause you don't let me vent
And you happy and content but it's coming at my expense
I got faded when you left and I been faded ever since

[Chorus]
Cause I'm afraid that if I'm sober I might notice that it's over
My heart is getting colder the farther I get from closure
Nothing lasts forever this was destined all along
I wonder where we'd be if I had never done you wrong
I wonder
Sometimes I wonder
Nothing lasts forever this was destined all along
I wonder where we'd be if I had never done you