[Verse 1]
I always pray for more
Hope my next song's better than the one I made before
I'm always chasing whores
Play the next bitch better than the one I played before
And I know her heart's gon' break for sure
I say I care but on the real I just don't care enough
Unfaithful, I been ungrateful since the age of four
Still remember not appreciating my parents stuff
I need to get my shit together
I been saying that shit forever
When will I be better? Never
Ever gave a girl an equal effort
I ain't sincere I've been senseless since Isabella
Still hoping God could just send me a Cinderella
And send my sisters umbrellas
I wrote the whole dictionary but still can't write wrongs
I traded all my temporary's for a lifelong
Yeah, so many promises that I ain't sure if I'll come through on
But Chégan just put insurance back on the Yukon
And Hampton I been so gone, that I just noticed you gone
Can't believe we thought we'd get famous off of the futon
Thinking how the old Calen ain't nothing like the new one
Thinking how the old days and nothing like the new ones
Looking at my nephew, he ain't nothing but a newborn
But already I love him, there ain't nothing I won't do for him
Momma told me life is full of price, no coupons are allowed
I can't wait for the day that I make you proud
Growing up I always hated, 'cause Tres was your favorite child
But I don't blame ya, I've always been shaded by greater clouds
Don't know if I'll be okay, but I know I'm okay for now
Don't no one know me as fake, they just know me to fake a smile
I know I need me a break, 'cause I'm slowly just breaking down
Feels like I'm stuck in a lane, keeping hope till the day I drown, fuck
[Interlude]
When will I be better? Never
Still hoping God can just send me a Cinderella
And send my sister's umbrellas
[Verse 2]
I always end up with less
I've always hated failure more than I love success
Every test that I pass is prep for another test
So I never get no rest and I'm always so stressed
She never knew guys to see blue eyes and feel unimpressed
But I realized the true beauty lies way under flesh
And if I'm honest when we met, I just wanted sex
But now I know when we together, I become my best
Always tell Marca, I'mma call her, though I do barely
Heard Landon just got 20 dollars from the tooth fairy
Anxiety still makes everything that I do scary
Hittin' the stores scary, hittin' the pool scary
Hittin' the bitch with no rubber because it's cool scary
Hittin' the spliff with my brother behind the school scary
Some people too Tom, some people too Jerry
Some people too calm, some people too worry
They say my shit deep, that's 'cause the truth's blurry
You grinded six weeks, I grinded two thirty
I think they hate the way I word it, it's maybe too wordy
They make you make it out the dirt, just to say you too dirty
But now I'm taking all my pills and responsible doses
Taking the nails out my heels and the thorns out my roses
Still feel your warmth on my shoulders
Through my mornings of coldness
I was formerly hopeless, now I'm forwardly focused, yeah