[Verse 1]
Still searching for something to put my faith in
Never even know my heart's working until it's breaking
Checking playlists, still ain't gotten a placement
Every song I drop just get lost inside of the matrix
Lord, has all my time been wasted? Please tell me
'Cause today might be the day my feet fail me
I try to keep a strong face so they can't see frailty
But tucking shit away just ain't no way to be healthy
I know all the chances that I didn't take and choices that I didn't make
Is all I'm gon’ regret when me and death go on that dinner date
But еvery exit therе's a different devil on my interstate
Listening to voices in my head I can't eliminate
I been awake for days straight, working at a slave rate
Life is a disaster but my studio my safe space
And I was waiting but my patience never paid great
Ain’t hearing what they say, they only stay until they vacate

[Interlude]

[Verse 2]
Independence is my only option
But I still miss it and I hope she watching
‘Cause through the cold she was my whole toboggan
Faded like the clothes I'm washing
Hanging on to what she's for sure forgotten
To the taste in my mouth that's mostly rotten
I wish I could open wide and find a way to vocalize
The way I'm feeling most inside before the day I'm told goodbye
Love is such a job and it can't work unless we both applied
Gave you all I got that's why it hurts to see your soul deprived
I know all the chances that I didn't take and choices that I didn't make
Is all I'm gon’ regret when me and death go on that dinner date
Feelings for my ex that I expected all to dissipate
Prevented me from feeling like some better shit may generate
I been awake for days straight working at a slave rate
Love is a disaster girl you used to be my safe space
And I was waiting but my patience never paid great
Ain’t hearing what they say, they only stay until they vacate