[Pre-Chorus]
And I find
Pain in the things I was comfortable in
Strain where I needed no effort
I’m tryna get better at finding my pleasure and fallin apart tryna hold it together

[Verse 1]
You know I’m breakin, ain’t no mistakin, I have been shaken down to my core
And I don’t even
Know what it is for sure
Know what it is no more
I am exhausted, passion is lost, ambition is caustic, leaving me torn
And I’m drained, I can’t explain the shame
Evade the blame, I can’t change, oh
Been movin this way for too many days
I just can’t shake it off again
I used to think I was king of the world
But I lost that confidence, and
Now and then, I lapse in judgment tryna find my grasp, the touch ain’t much, but all I have is love that keeps me crawling back, I’ve dug my grave, I fall in black, I run away from all of that, but I find

[Chorus]
Pain in the things I was comfortable in
Strain where I needed no effort
I’m tryna get better at finding my pleasure and fallin apart tryna hold it together, my
Brain is the plane where I battle alone
Writing my fight to the letter, I
Pray days of darkness don’t come at all
But oh, if they do, just don’t let me...
[Verse 2]
Slip back into my habits
I know I barely show it but I don’t know when it happens
I can’t help that I snap and I never meant to be sad, it’s just the mission I’m chasing cannot exist if I’m average, and
The more people know of you the more they think they know you
The more people seem to know the more they think they own you
The more n***as need a favor, the more they call me
But when it’s time to be repaid, suddenly it’s all me
I ain’t never been alone, and that is a blessing
But nobody in my dome, and I’m sick of stressing
I got family at home, even when I’m tested
I got people on my phone who are less invested
If you call yourself a friend, know I’m never perfect
I’ve got trouble on my end, some of it deserved
But if you really by my side it’ll all be worth it
Even when I feel deserted, all I ask is don’t let me fall