When will I make it out this fucking storm?
Every time it rains, it pours
Every single day is like the day before
Replaying all the trauma in my head until I can't take no more
Tell the world I'm fine but deep inside I fucking hate you for
Living with this hatred
Don't know if I can change it
Running from my problems, really I'm too scared to face it
Know I'll probably cut you off before you hurt me
I'm too jaded 'cause it's hard to let you in
When all my effort got degraded
Wear my heart up on my sleeve
I showed you parts of me that nobody should evеr see
Then you picked at my scars then laughеd at me while I bleed
It's exactly as it seems
And exactly why I act like I'm okay when I can't breathe
You don't know how much that took of me
You don't know how much you took from me
Abandoned as a kid, I was alone when I shouldn't be
My home wasn't home, I fucking hated how they looked at me
Jealous of the world and all the people that I couldn't be
So I looked for peace in all the things that were not good for me
Releasing all the chaos, I felt like I was a part of something
Part of me still holding on but knows that ain't nobody
Got me praying and prayed again
But in the end it never changed nothing
Wish that I could say I wasn't fazed
But I'm still running
Wish that I could say it was a phase
But it's still coming
Hard to see the light when your days never seem sunny
Pressure makes a diamond
But you break if you never change from it