I need a little sunshine, and less rain

I been tryna self medicate to take away the pain

Haven't slept in 3 days ain’t been sober since May

I been back up on my bullshit think I needa make a change



Thought I found a new shorty but she caught up on her ex

I just want her to be happy so I'm focused on what's next

All this money keep calling I don’t care about a check

Like these people say they do but wouldn't care if I was dead



I don't really give a fuck though

Cause Im still putting up a front though

Like my heart my cold but I don't know
Why the fuck I can't show

Everything I think and I just can't go

Back to the way it used to be no



I can't let em know that I been slipping

And temptation getting to me shit I wish that it was different

I know ima go out like my idols and they'll say the miss me

Y’all don’t motherfucking miss me tell me who the fuck you kidding



All these people know me now but I'm feeling so alone

I keep staring at my phone like somebody finna call

But I keep burning all these bridges

And no matter how I feel I never had the heart to go and tell anybody I miss em I don’t know


Tell me why I'm so alone

I know this the path I chose I'm supposed to walk this road

But I feel I'm losing hope and I don’t know how I could cope



Sometimes I feel like ima fold

And I don't think nobody knows

They want me to play a role

For too long I played along



I don't know if ima last

Used to be afraid to crash

Now my foot is on the gas
And everything been moving fast



I don't really give a fuck though

Cause Im still putting up a front though

Like my heart my cold but I don't know

Why the fuck I can't show

Everything I think and I just can't go

Back to the way it used to be no