Seen so much shit I’m still paranoid
I get nightmares every night some things I can’t avoid
Really miss the kid inside in the Polaroid
But that part of me is dead, I’m sorry to disappoint

Did a lot of dirt would never brag about it
I got family in the dirt that never got up out it
The streets don’t love you, they don't care about your fuckin' family
Heroin will take your life away, no way around it

Fuck it, I'ma keep it real
I wish I woulda listened when you came to me for help
But instead I cut you off and never asked you how felt
And I left you to your demons just so I could save myself

I know I couldn’t make a difference
But I’m still feeling guilty
When I’m reminiscent
It’s not my problem but who’s problem doesn’t make it different
You had a problem and my problem was I played the victim
You needed help and I didn’t give it

We got high for the first time
Remember snorting lines in the whip by the stop sign
You told me that you fine that even though that you not fine
And so I had your back like the way that you had my mine it’s all love
You had a problem, it’s mine too
If someone started beef every time I would slide too
I used to show you songs in the ride we would vibe too
You told me I would make it way before even I knew

I really miss those days, fuck I don’t know what to say
I’m hearing rumors every day
Can’t even look you in the face
Man I really hope it change
We all going through some things
But I went the other way, sometimes I really wish I stayed
I don’t know if I’m to blame
If I really coulda changed
Anything that you were going through or helped you with your pain
But it’s still inside my brain
I still act like I’m not phased
Every time I hear your name it takes right back to those days
Man, I really wanna say

That I love you and I’m sorry I heard that you were shooting up but didn’t try to stop it
I heard that about the accident and trouble that you got in
But I was being selfish dealing with my own problems
To this day I’m haunted
I don’t know why I can’t
Tell you how I feel or how or how I think that
If something happened to you I would hate that
Every night I pray that
You find a way out and find a way to get your fuckin' life back
I’m still caught in the past
I’m caught up in that the fact that I’ll never get my brother back
Just know that I still love you and I mean that
And I’m really sorry that you never got to see that

You were my brother when I had none
Whenever I needed a shoulder, you would have one
Used to cry and vent
You were my best friend
But the drugs changed you, now you’re not him

I can’t even recognize you anymore
You stole from me and told me that you never did before
I told you you were dead to me and then I just ignored
Everything you did, and now I hate myself for it

I gave up on you like everybody else
And I never payed attention to any cry out for help
Right before you overdosed you called me and it felt
Like there was nothing I could do and I didn’t know how to help
You went home I got a call that you stopped responding
Then they asked me if I knew what the fuck that you were on, and
I didn’t know the answer, you never told me
I never knew the demons and the secrets you were lonely

Sometimes I hate how it go
I been on this road
I'm feeling alone and nobody knows
And I can’t even go anymore
So many loved ones gone
They all moved on
I act like I still stand strong
I'm broken, hopeless
Nobody even noticed
They got their own problems, they too focused
Sometimes this shit a joke, and
It’s ridiculous the way that I been living how
The weight up on my shoulders got me tipping and I'm giving in
Sometimes I really feel like giving in
Trust me it gets sickening
I can’t trust a soul and I’m not different than
Any of these people I'm not innocent
I just wish that I could forget
And I could take back all the shit I said