It seems like the weight of the world’s on my shoulders
Time moving faster
My heart’s getting colder
I never call her just tex her "come over"
And always regret it as soon as I'm sober
Don’t know when I turned into the bad guy
I say I’ll change but I don’t try
I just keep living the same lies
Looking for something I can’t find
I don’t want sympathy
I just want everything to happen differently
I can’t make sense of the signs that were sent to me
Talk to my demons so much I need thеrapy
I fear that one day my thoughts gonna bury me
I wastе so much of my time finding clarity
Turn to a monster, it’s honestly scaring me
I talk to God, but I’m living in heresy
Hard to believe when you feel the disparity
I still feel empty with all this prosperity
All of this money but nobody's there for me
I don’t trust no one, I mean that sincerely
Really, so where
It’s getting embarrassing
I don’t fit in with like most of these people
I think I’m jealous of most of these people
But then again, I know the grasses look greener
And we all got problems you don't always see
I know it too well
That looks are deceiving
Now tell me you love me
Just show me you mean it
We all want something that we can’t believe in
Am I too selfish ?
That need a reason?
I dance with the devil, just chasing a feeling
I see my past when I stare at the ceiling
I live like most of my days playing defense
And honestly it feels like I'm stuck in the deep end
I just keep doing the motions
They think I’m doing the most
Really I don’t like to talk much
Can’t show you the way if I’m lost
I just keep doing emotions
They think I’m doing the most
Really I don’t like to talk much
Can’t show you the way if I’m lost