[Verse 1]
(I told you)
I told you that I'd never leave
(And then I left)
Used to wear my heart up on my sleeve
But now it's on my chest
I don't show love, the world made me colder
I been getting sick of all this weight up on my shoulders
I gotta watch my back because I got a lot of enemies
I finally got some motion and that came with lots of jealousy
Friends don't want what's best for me
I don't want what's best for me
I think that I'm afraid of my potential so I hesitate
I don't wanna hesitate, I just wanna elevate
I just wanna use all of the gain inside my head to make me separate
From all this fake love and the bullshit that I'm better than
Think I'm in my head again
I don't need no medicine
I just need some clarity
Cut off all distractions
Focus on the road ahead of me and make it happen
Spent too much time thinking all about the past tense
How can I move forward if my head is up in the clouds?
And I self-destruct, every time I try to level up
In my own way, my excuses always showing up
Limiting beliefs or reasons why I never do enough
In my heart I know I'm capable, that's why it really sucks
Wasting time in my mind thinking 'bout how I been wasting time
Ain't it funny? That's a paradox
And it all becomes so obvious
But I still do the opposite of everything I know
I should really stop
But I'm caught up in the cycle
They telling me the first stage of grief is denial
Feeling like I'm running through the same day for miles
Praying for a change, hiding pain with a smile
Going through the motions hiding pain, I'm on fire
Trying to numb it all through my vices and desires
But honestly, this runt really starts to make you tired
And I'm sick of looking in the mirror at a liar
Lately, life been getting harder
Everything been changing
Hard to see the spark that I once had for creating
But I'm staying patient
Trying to love the process
Can't stop to smell the roses if you focused on the progress
At least I'm being honest
[Outro]
At least I'm being honest
Tryna tell myself that I can have it if I want it
But I'm still running
Trying to find myself in a bottle full of nothing
At least I'm being honest