[Verse 1]
Can't stop if I meant to
I don't really got nobody I can vent to
I don't trust no one, never meant to
You don't know what the fuck that I've been through
I got so many problems
Money won't solve 'em
They keep on pilin'
Write down a list of my options
Ok I got it, homie just watch it
So I got sick and tired of playing the victim card
They all acted, I don't really give a shit regardless
My dark past is what made me heartless
Money came and they went and vomit
Wanted a friend but they wanted to profit
Look for a snake in the grass in a outfit
I'll be alone when I rest in my coffin
Was sеarching for God and it gave me a complex
I sеt it off when I started
No it's not rap motherfucker, it's arson
I was alone on my own with no options
Hiding in 'go' 'cause I know that they watching
I seen an angel that fell
Danced with the devil and reveling infinite hell
It's a benevolent spell
Was lost in the rise in the way that I fell
Loving the ghost in the shell
When will I wake up from infinite hell?
Caught in a cycle, been stuck in a cell
Trapped in my mind, I been begging for help
But nobody will save me, I'm saving myself
Why am I caught in the past?
All of the questions I ask
All the thoughts in my head are intrusive
They just keep on looping and looping and looping
[Verse 2]
I'm getting so sick of this game
Money came in with the fame
Everybody wanna be a buddy when you got something that they think they can gain
Fuck it, I know it's a shame
I got a hole in my chest
I got ahold of my ego and put it in check
All in my head
I tell myself that I honestly think I'm better off dead
I live a life of regret
Running from problems I don't understand
I know the answers, they're all in my head
So why can't I fix it, I'll live it again
I tell myself my problems are valid, to bottle it in
Take life on the chin, the pain within
Will make you a man
The toxic cycle is part of the plan
Just do it again

[Outro]
I wanna learn and grow from it
Gave a lot of myself up
Got nothing back I can show for it
You rarely get to see a tree grow
But that doesn't mean it ain't growing for you
And the grass always seems green
Until you get up close and see the rodents in it
Dirt on my name, I grow roses with it
They've built a cage, couldn't hold me in it
Got on my way and got back in the game
Now my focus' insane and I'm not feeling hopeless
Caught in the ocean and barely floating
I started to swim and then started to notice
The light at the start of the coast is approaching
And I just gotta be the one to approach it