[Verse 1]
Yeah
Since I've seen that milly plaque
Man I could tell that I've been slacking
Way too comfortable with myself and where I'm at
And how far have I really come, that's what I'm asking
Honestly not far, I'm in the same room rapping
I ain't mad at that fact, I've come a long way
But I could've made it further but I chose the wrong things
Wrong things were priority
Once I saw the dream, the switch flipped
You're all fucked since I trashed the old me
Give my family hugs and kisses since I'm leaving for the weekend
I ain't mean that, XO, the type to give before you leaving
I been so distracted, disappointed in myself
I lost sights of why I even started rapping
Shit I felt, like I lost all the drive I had when looking back a year
I was writing so damn much I heard a voice up in my ear
Saying if you keep this up, you'll see a milly in a year
Then I got it, if I'm honest it brought all the shit I feared
Everyone changed, all turned fake
I ain't really know how to deal with that
Thought it'd be great, but this my fate
My mind has been moving so fast
But I'm gon' make, something great out of all the negative things
And they gon' hate, when I break out of what's been holding me back
Let 'em watch from the sidelines I know just how that feel
Watching people not as great as you get time up on that field
All because they work ethic was beyond the amount of skill
They possessed and I'm a threat I got both talent and the will
To be the greatest, I just hit a bump that's in the road
Though they mistake that think my head because now people ask for photos
That ain't the case, I hit the brakes I needed time to slow my roll
So I stay focused while they gas me like I play the role of ozone
I be workin', workin', workin'; won't let nothin' break me down
Me relaxing, takin' breaks is what I no longer allow
No matter the sacrifices that must be made for the crown
I'm here, and I ain't leaving get comfortable with me now
'Cause I'm here, and I ain't never leaving; no
Even if I die there will even be a ghost
Rapping as a spirit I never can let it go
I been on some shit, soon everybody'll know
I'm a different breed of a human, I said it ain't human
Cause ain't nobody know what to do when I go with this music
And lately I've been showing improvement, I know can do it
And ain't nobody like it when I go 'cause they losing, uh
I've been viewing every single person that I see
As a target, it's so hard 'cause I once thought that they loved me
'Til I turned my back, the blade come out, they start to stab at me
But the blade fucking breaks, now they start running from me
[Verse 2]
Yeah
I'ma get a Grammy, speak it into existence
You gon' say I'm jinxing it, bitch, fuck all of your superstitions
I'm fine
My whole life, I been told I'd never be winning
They trophies, they gon' speak for me
No words will speak from my lips, it's so wild
Since I was a child I knew my brain was equipped with a gift
I didn't know what but I knew I need some forgiveness
Way down the road, now I know and they showing me why I need it
It's so I could shake hands with those who was never believing, uh
I been overwhelmed, there's so much shit that's coming through
So much shit that's going on, no one to thank but all of you
I'm thriving but my anxiety levels is through the roof
That's because I care so much and I won't ever let me lose
I look for competition, honestly I see no other but me
Just myself, I'm who I'm trying to one up
And you can doubt all you want but I'ma stay hot like the summer
You hate it, then FU-2 like the Kamikaze cover
I'm gone