[Chorus]
I remember smoking just to feel some
Then I started poppin' I ain't talking bout no pills no
I was always starving then my plate was startna fill up
Started getting heavy wasn't ready for the meal tho
And I really let it get to me
Man I'm talking every night scared to die if I went to sleep
Saw my heart was pounding chest bouncing felt like I couldn't breathe
When I'm in that state of mind terrified so I never speak

[Verse 1]
Yeah
Lotta people just got me misunderstood
But if only they knеw what's under the hood
Of what drives this
Always fеlt like it's clouds above me wherever I went
And no one ever knew cause if hurt then I'm
I turn my back lots of people
I was tryna find
Myself in all my growing years but music I would write
Start reaching people globally say how I changed they life
Thought I knew but didn't know that this could happen with a mic
Fast forward 3 years look at me now I'm touring
Lost within myself, but just the thrill kept me going
I remember I would smoke every night after the show finished
In the van then we on back on the road for more business
Smoking only thing that let me go of what my souls feeling
And all this time, nobody knew that I was down bad
I kept everything to myself I felt like an outcast
Let me know if you ever felt like this cause
[Chorus]
I remember smoking just to feel some
Then I started poppin' I ain't talking bout no pills no
I was always starving then my plate was startna fill up
Started getting heavy wasn't ready for the meal tho
And I really let it get to me
Man I'm talking every night scared to die if I went to sleep
Saw my heart was pounding chest bouncing felt like I couldn't breathe
When I'm in that state of mind terrified so I never speak

[Verse 2]
Look
I always do that when I'm hurtin' I don't say a word
But I'll make a song open up and now my family concerned
But then my homie hit me up said I'm the one you can call
I know your road is rough but I'm right here through it all
I grew a lil distant but I ain't cut you off
Just know I got your back I don't want you to feel lonely
That changed it all
Felt like a weight is off
My chest cause someone close reassured that I ain't alone
That small gesture the start of my next book
New beginning cause that last chapter had to be the last one

[Verse 3]
And we all live with regrets but we move forward from the shit
Might be hard to let shit go but we ain't supposed to live with it
Part of growth and we may fold but we ain't broken can't give in
We stay strong up on ten toes because we know we gonna win
We all in our heads but we know in the end
That we gon' figure it out, it's part of the bigger plan
But we can't get distracted now
We felt what comes from our actions now
Mmmm
[Chorus]
I remember smoking just to feel some
Then I started poppin' I ain't talking bout no pills no
I was always starving then my plate was startna fill up
Started getting heavy wasn't ready for the meal tho
And I really let it get to me
Man I'm talking every night scared to die if I went to sleep
Saw my heart was pounding chest bouncing felt like I couldn't breathe
When I'm in that state of mind terrified so I never speak, no