[Intro]
I start to sense the panic
Coursing through my veins
A sickness so bleak and tragic, I feel its symptoms now
Just like a noose around my neck

[Verse 1]
And I've spent my whole life
Trying to prove to myself that I was good enough
When in fact if I'd just opened my eyes
I'd have been sure to find what it takes to get better

[Chorus]
I've lived my life under the shadow of doubt
I've lived my life beneath these darkened clouds
I've lived my whole life just trying to find a way to get by
Instead of fighting to make myself happy

[Verse 2]
I'm cursed by this life I've lead
Could you fix me? Because inside I think I'm dead
Anxiety creeps up my spine
And I lose all breath as it smothers me
The world around me starts to fade to black
And I feel nothing again, I'm cold just like ice
Forgive me for thinking, that I would be just fine
'Cause I don't think my heart can take much more
Watching someone else I love walk right out the door
And I feel that time's wasting away
Stuck with one foot in my grave
And I am so afraid, I am so afraid
[Chorus]
I've lived my life under the shadow of doubt
I've lived my life beneath these darkened clouds
I've lived my whole life just trying to find a way to get by
Instead of fighting to make myself happy

[Bridge]
And one day I'll tell my sons
To follow their dreams no matter the chaos it brings
Life is too damn short to wallow
In our self-inflicted misery
And someday I'll prove to my sons
That I'm truly sorry for everything
Because I tried my best to love them
While also doing what's best for
What's best for me

[Breakdown]
I want to live my life
Without regret
Sometimes I look in the mirror
Disgusted by my own reflection
That old familiar feeling
Creeps back up from the depths to steal my breath again