[Verse]
In the hopeless battle with mindlessly minds
I close my eyes
I thought I could blunder disguise my own pain by picturing pride and just overshadow my shiner
Just cope I grab at a nine
Can these hoes get that off my mind
See the pope in chapel is fine but 'til Christ I'm crossing the line
His crews will fix the design
I spread cancer throughout the campus
When campuses can't define me they illustrate my detachment
Disconnected from feelings and private
This shit is madness
I can't imagine relaxing
Right now I feel like I'm slacking
Ain't even half of my potential 'cause I can't think of the words
I'm not trying to be influential
See it's essential that I make the perfect use of this pencil and push aside every pimple
These obstacles I assemble
They semble bumps in the road 'cause I face the street with a cold stare
I'm mounting knees and a thousand feet in the froze air
Out my mouth I'm breathing I found a reason to go there
The pounding beat and the sound of screaming I'm outta reach, but I'm planning to drown the demons with liquor and pounds of treason
It seems like just now I'm thinking I'm probably down for leaving
Been sleeping eternity, yet they turn to see how I'm dreaming
I never go out on weekends
I couldn't amount the meaning and when I'm outside my house I pout
I'm down in evening
Despair a wolf with a bare look and a talent teaching
Well who I'm fooling in school can't even pronounce achievements
Yet I plead to be counted even, but I need to be bound and beaten
Think you need to be downed in treatment and with this rap I'm decent
My skin color rate why I'm pledging a black allegiance
That means the stuck in the stillness of thought
Can't find my way in the light, but in dark I never get lost
Immune to mist I just cough
Sickening sit and talk
A psychiatrist is too soft
It takes God himself just to get me help
I hardly pray on the hardest days when it hits me well
If you couldn't tell I'm a fearless fuck up whose never failed
[Chorus]
I got a hit list
One for n***as, one for bitches
And only real n***as get this
All I want for Christmas
More space in these ditches
Ain't no playing for forgetting this n***a
N***a
N***a I got a hit list
One for n***as one for bitches
And only real n***as get this
All I want for Christmas
More space in these ditches
Ain't no playing for forgetting this n***a
N***a
N***a