At 19
I didn’t think I’d make it to 23
But I’m happy to be here

Welcome back from the dark side
Tried and tested by successions of hard times
Take a deep breath
This isn’t over yet
Air out the carbon monoxide

There’s a voice in the back of my head and it’s deafening
All my friends hate my guts, feel the weight of everything
Bearing down on my shoulders
Down on my shoulders

I see
My past self standing in front of me
It’s back like a leap year
At 19
I didn’t think I’d make it to 23
But I’m happy to be hеre

I think I saw you in a past life
Enamored of thе glow from the gas light
In a younger skin
You dug your fingers in
I walked away on the last night
Feeling drained, looking up at the best that’s ahead of me
Hold it down, power through, live to spite my enemies
You wanna see me crumble
You wanna see me crumble
Dead on arrival

…but I won’t
Give you that satisfaction
Everything crashing over me
Nowadays feels so weightless
The context is sobering

You can’t take that away from me