[Verse 1]
I never enjoyed a surprise birthday
So naturally I hate the opposite surprise
And you can imagine I'm hurting the worst way
Your family's loss is Heaven's gain, oh that's right

[Chorus]
But uh, I keep falling down that hole
The one that I can't control
You are gone, send a text, you don't respond, so
Not tryna be selfish, no
But can you answer my heart from Heaven?
'Cause I got questions

[Verse 2]
I won't sit here and call you selfish
But could you tell that you would leave us in Hell? (In Hell)
I can't say you were anyone else's
'Cause life is so cold, it's only saying "oh, well"

[Refrain]
Is this a joke? A better question than "why?"
You ain't want us to know 'cause you had anti-pride

[Chorus]
Also, too much on your mind
Addresses, numbers, times
Your obsession that nobody questioned
It feels like we're all blind 'cause we didn't read the sign
11:11, a new star in Heaven
[Refrain]
Is this a joke? A better question than "why?"
You ain't want us to know, you kept your plan airtight

[Outro]
(Was it your anti-pride?)
If you were upset, you would never let us see
Guess what? She's hurt
But she would never let you know it (Let you know it)
Never show it, no matter what, she stays smiling
(One minute, I'm crying)
No, I'm not upset
You think that this shit is funny?
Laughing out loud, yeah, bet you're rolling over (Rolling over)
Showing God that I'm ugly face cryin'