[Verse 1]
I never enjoyed the surprise birthday
So naturally I hate the opposite surprise
And you can imagine I'm hurting the worst way
Your family's loss is Heaven's gain - oh that's fried

[Chorus]
But I, I keep fallin' down that hole
The one that I can't control
You are gone, send a text you don't respond, so

Not tryna be selfish, no
But can you enter my heart from Heaven
Cuz I got questions

[Verse 2]
I won't sit here and call you selfish
But could you tell that you would leave us in Hell? (In Hell)
I can't say you were anyone else's
Cuz life is so cold, it's only saying "oh well"

[Bridge]
Is this a joke or better question, then why?
You ain't want us to know, cuz you had [?] pride

[Chorus]
Also too much on your mind
[?], numbers, times
Your obsession that nobody questioned
It feels like we're all blind cuz we didn't read the sign
11:11, new star in heaven

[Bridge]
Is this a joke or better question, then why?
You ain't want us to know, you kept your plan airtight

(Was it your [?])
If you were upset, you would never let us see
Guess what? She's hurt
But she would never let you know it (Let you know it)
Never show it, no matter what she stays smiling

([?] cry)
No, I'm not upset
You think that this shit is funny?
Laughing out loud, yeah, bet you're rolling over (Rolling over)
Showing God that I'm ugly face crying