[Intro]
"My whole life had been about, making a masterpiece of some sort and I was like, this is gonna be my, my masterpiece and like-
People were saying "be cool"
It was the way that I felt in my mind, that I-
This is how you have to grow up, to be, at this age, y'know, you have to let go of these ideals"

[Chorus]
I used to be scared just to be myself
Right until I fucking caved and just changed myself
Twitching on the floor, I don't need no help
I need to dump my thoughts on someone else
Smoke up a zip all to myself
All this marijuana just kills my health
I cough more than I can speak
If I block that thought, I don't feel so weak (So weak)

[Verse 1]
If I block that thought, I don't feel so weak
Time moves fast and life looks bleak
Before I pass, I wanna live my dream
Nights grow longer, I lose sleep
Mind grows stronger, limbs grow weak
Just put me out of my misery
I couldn't fuck with the vices soon
All of the shit has subsided blue
Water's are filling my eyelids
I think I'm reaching the island
Come out the water and feel renewed
All of your troubles have left from you
Go do whatever you wanted to
When life doesn't matter, it's possible (It's possible)
[Bridge]
Wanted to (How long)
Thanks for everything, love you

[Verse 2]
Oh, God
How long have you been standing there?
Lights grow dim, and I can't get air
I can't win and it's not fair
And I can't move, so get the fuck out of here
I couldn't win if I wanted
Continue it when I say stop it
Nothing else could ever hurt me
When I'm busy already hurting
Guess all my work was a waste, shit
I'm getting sick of the way I say
My words 'cause I'm always eating them
And I'm getting sick of the taste
Cold out but no snow out
It's August but I wear a coat out
On the walk back from your house
Phone's dead so I listen to the street sounds

[Chorus]
I used to be scared just to be myself
Right until I fucking caved and just changed myself
Twitching on the floor, I don't need no help
I need to dump my thoughts on someone else
Smoke up a zip all to myself
All this marijuana just kills my health
I cough more than I can speak
If I block that thought, I don't feel so weak