[Intro]
December Christmas party
Last year, don't get me started
New Year was so inviting
Compared to the one before it
December Christmas party (9TAILS, yeah)
Last year, don't get me started (Now)

[Verse]
I may forget what you had said right now (Now)
Later it'll hit my head somehow
I haven't eaten since I last laid down
Three days, no sleep, so fuck the bread right now (Now)
My people tell me it'll all work out
My brain had told me "check the past life out"
You were fucked up, now I throw up
When I compare it to my now, wow
I got some problems I should really sort out 'stead of running head down
Living piece of shit, you smell the fumes from my house
And it ferment 'cause I never go out, blaow
Bring us something else and I might take my lights out
It's not fair, for others, swear I care
For others, took me years to raise my head and share the air
With others, now I smother them, I aim for anti-sin
I got a lotta gin to drink before I'm whole again (Slurp)
I just wanna lay my body on the ottoman
And love you while mentally present there for all of it
Honestly, it's hard for me when rapping hourly for salary
And still take time to live in my reality
This heavy feeling always disembowel me
I'm spending hours fucking showering
Ayy, the love they show despite my faults is so empowering
I'm glad my soul is keeping close again
Yeah