[Intro: TJ Holland]
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Look
[Verse: TJ Holland]
Look, I never get used to the failure
But my whole life I've been failing
Second guessing, depressing and stressing
Huh, but if this is life, then I nailed it
Yeah, I notice that I talk to myself more
I zone out, so I never do listen
I need help changing myself Lord
There's a whole lot that I better do different
Or I'ma probably end up being dеad with nothing
Depressed whеn I'm bringing up them dead discussions
Sick of acting like I'm not scared or something
Like, when I start to care about their assumptions, 'cause that ain't me
I want the money and the place in life but just can't pay the price 'cause you know that ain't cheap
Been questioning in every way of life about my way of life, and you know that ain't free
I've been chained down, I have no control of my brain now
Don't drink so my vice is to smoke some
Numb emotions to just turn the pain down
I never been comfortable talking so I just put heart in my music, it rain out
I record it and don't put a thing out
What the fuck do I feel so ashamed 'bout? Man, I don't know
I come up with all these excuses and then I just blame doubt
Huh, I'm the only one blocking my shine, why do I put this flame out?
My friends asking me what the problem is, I cannot solve this shit, I gotta change now
I can't walk around with a fake smile
I got demons I need you to take out
'Cause my soul hurting
Uh, I think that I'm finally lost from all of this soul searching
I stay helping everyone out, I should work on my own person
Man, I don't really got it figured out
I'm missing feelings, how a n***a used to sin
To say I ain't really got it figured out
But when I feel in doubt I turn to you again, Lord
[Outro: TJ Holland]
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