[Intro: Nine Inch Nails Sample]
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

[Verse One]
I remember I was 10, I had my first encounters with depression
My notebook chalked with suicidal thoughts in lyrics pressed in
Ink on paper illustrations of a smith and Wesson
Review the past and repetition lead me to the present
Granted I’m feeling like many prefer the gift of absence
Do want a wake, I want cremation, I don’t need a casket
Fake family and friends around to claim they know me
Really, if they did, I wouldn’t be as stressed or feel so lonely
I only blame a few, I ain’t been reachin out
But then again, reactions, the reasons words fails to leave my mouth
Advil PM as a substitute for xans
Don’t make me angry, make me sleepy, plus sobriety’s the plan, to kick off 2018, with no mollies in my hand, not even swisher sweets, I’m feeling weaker as I cram
Information, in my cranium, I keep on pacing, and hit me since I dropped the “Dr.” peeps proceed to test my patience

[Hook]
(I hurt myself today)
Can you hear me now?
(I hurt myself today)
Don’t wanna scream or shout
(I hurt myself today)
Okay, never mind, it’s cool, it’s fine, I’ll be okay
[Verse Two]
Broken past will make you live your present life with no concerns about the future
Or even if you want one, when the stress is getting to ya
Recap all your qualities, the bad starts to abuse ya
The good becomes irrelevant and messes with your mood
And you telling yourself you’re worthless, your cursed and inadvertently introverted in person and no one knows that you’re hurting or cares to try to acknowledge the constant sorrows from all those times that you sprinted from hell and back and not wanting to wake tomorrow
But it's propane for the slow pain
Tryna leave it all is cocaine when what you wanted was a novacane
Mary Jane just don’t know your pain
Try to roll it all when some say that you cannot just smoke it all away

[Bridge]
I’m a low life, low class grade, fallin, no one catch me, ditching all my classmates, don’t wanna face, another face, cause my anxiety attacks me, packing all my bags to run away cause I don’t need another in the ashtray

[Hook]
(I hurt myself today)
Can you hear me now?
(I hurt myself today)
Don’t wanna scream or shout
(I hurt myself today)
Okay, never mind, it’s cool, it’s fine, I’ll be okay

[Bridge]
I’m a low life, low class grade, fallin, no one catch me, ditching all my classmates, don’t wanna face, another face, cause my anxiety attacks me, packing all my bags to run away cause I don’t need another in the ashtray (x5)

[Hook]
(I hurt myself today)
Can you hear me now?
(I hurt myself today)
Don’t wanna scream or shout
(I hurt myself today)
Okay, never mind, it’s cool, it’s fine, I’ll be okay
[Outro]
I hurt myself today (x5)
Okay, never mind, it's cool, it's fine, I'll be okay