I thank you for letting me know
What a shithead I really am
It had to come out of your mouth
For me to internalize it

Cause I always respected you
And I will always love you
But you will never love me
Cause I do not deserve it

And I cause destruction
Everywhere that I go
I am like a giant monster
Having no conception about how powerful I am

There is no excuse
For acting the way that I do
I wish I could go back to time
To make sure I never hurt you

And I have no business
Being so goddamn self-righteous
Maybe karma was real all along
And my anxiety and depression's just the universe
Telling me that I need to get my shit together and
This is not a pity party
I am not the victim
The victim's the rest of the world
That I cannot stop hurting