Can't even write songs
I am way too sad to even try to vocalise my thoughts
Wanna destroy my feelings
Every single damn time that I get so caught up in the healing
Cause it's never lasting
Cause I'm stuck never lasting

You could tell me a million ways
That things could get better for me
I'll give you a billion fucking excuses
For why I just keep on regressing
Back to the person I was when I was 12
So shell shocked by the complexities
Of the world, and my mind
And all the rest that is still left to be defined

Most days I'm just too scared to be alive
I push everyone away
Single handedly destroying my reputation
Through the stupid things I say
That I can't take back
I am permanently damaged from the results of my past
And it's everlasting
Cause I'm stuck never lasting

I could live a trillion years
And still feel like shit every day
And I could live a quadrillion more
And still never find a fucking way
To satisfy the ones that I love
To which I wish I could say
Please forgive me now
Please forgive me now
Just give me a break, I'm just trying to make it
Through every minute of the day
Before I sell this broken soul on eBay
No reserve