Roderick Porter
before the break of dawn
[Verse 1]
Evoked emotions got me smokin' like a locomotive
Swallowed by the ocean, minds awoken then my eyes just open
It was a dream but my clothes are soakin' still
What kind of life is it to put my hope inside a pill?
I'm trapped inside fight inside a never ending war
Take a double dose of meds with the water that I pour
I'm losing consciousness at twelve but I'm up again by four
fuck it I don't really wanna do this shit anymore
I(i) just(just) don't (don't) know (know) what (what) you (you) want (want) from (from) me (me)
I (I) just (just) don't (don't) know (know) what (what) you (you) want (want) from (from) me (me)
I'm missing meals with my family so I'm hurtin' their trust
I fall asleep the same time that they servin' it up
I'm runnin' outta brain cells the amount I'm burnin' it up
My friend hidin' from his demons through the purp' in his cup
[Verse 2]
Slept a whole damn three hours over last night
Fall asleep in class, all my nights are fuckin bad nights
That's right, please don't ask why I don't act right
Dream to sleep on clouds, can't smoke enough for that height
The birds chirpin' might be beautiful, it stress me
Float away on kicks, bass slappin' like it's Gretzky
If there is a god, I bet he doin' this shit to test me
Swear that I could rule the fuckin' world if he just let me
I guess he either hates me or he doesn't even notice
Liquor in my potions while I smoke to Mr. Ocean
In the open, Logan ride the fuckin wip like it was stolen
So fuck you and all your fuckin' stupid omnipotence
Wanna stop the shit that goes on in my head
Hands covered in this ink and dome covered in lead
But I got too much love to get lost in the sorrow
The sunlight might be brighter tomorrow