I'm just trying to figure out who I want to be this week
Because I know it's not me
I'm just trying to figure out who I want you all to see
Because I know it's not me

Contrary to your popular belief
I’ve been drowning in the depths
So far gone and so dark
That nobody can save me

I don't mean to sound impatient
Or hollow and insincere
But I've got postcards in my kitchen saying "l wish you were here"
I'm stubborn and ungrateful with the people in my life
Oh, I often want to off myself, but I don't quite wanna die

Oh, I’m not really who you say that I am
I'd be better off dead or living on the lam

I'm just trying to figure out who I want to be this week
Because I know it's not me
I'm just trying to figure out who I want you all to see
Because I know it's not me
Contrary to your popular belief
I’ve been drowning in the depths
So far gone and so dark
That nobody can save me

Now the bathtub's running over
And the oven gas is on
And last will and testament has already been drawn

So thanks for coming over, that was awfully nice of you
Feel free to shoot the messenger cause I'm just passing through
Nobody tells you selling soul is what it takes
Cheers to everyone who thought that I would make it

While I'm just trying to figure out how I want you all to grieve
Because I know I gotta leave
I'm just trying to figure out how I want you all to grieve
Because I know I gotta leave
No. Contrary to your popular beliefs
I'll be dead, before you even think
Oh, I'll be dead, before you even think
To save me