Now I've debated
That my sobriety is overrated
And I want to feel intoxicated
For just a moment to escape it
I miss you
I'm feeling weighted
And it's been so long since I've been faded
I'm not trying to make this complicated
I'm proud of the life that I've created
I hate you

I miss when my eyes would dilate and
I would start to get that taste I'd waited all day for
Settle that score with my head on my floor
Painted my face with elation, till I'd forget contemplation
And I could vacate my mind, copy paste a time
Where I was funny, loud, pretty, stupid, forgetful, regretful
False sense of serenity, identity, it was my only enemy
But damn did it feel good
And I miss you

Now I've debated
That my sobriety is overrated
And I want to feel intoxicated
For just a moment to escape it
I miss you
I'm feeling weighted
And it's been so long since I've been faded
I'm not trying to make this complicated
I'm proud of the life that I've created
I hate you
I hated when I was degraded
Two more drinks call it persuaded
It's ok it's only fun, you're young, won't matter in the long run
Grabbed my waist and called me hun
Then it was over it was done
He was funny, loud, pretty, stupid, forgetful, regretful
Thoughtless decisions based on loneliness, lowliness, my own weakness
The bottle was my only fix
And I hate you

Now I've debated
That my sobriety is overrated
And I want to feel intoxicated
For just a moment to escape it
I miss you
I'm feeling weighted
And it's been so long since I've been faded
I'm not trying to make this complicated
I'm proud of the life that I've created
I hate you