[Verse 1]
When did I realise I was absolved of
All the tensions between my eyes
At last, my gaze cleared and I
Knew how right I was in fading you from my life
Obligated, habituated, how I hated
To be cooped up in my room, sleeping day-to-day with
You investing your time invading all my spaces
Telling me how my friends were lying scheming nasty fakes

[Verse 2]
You know I turned to you
Over a decade how I turned to you
Your eyes saw clearly mine were murky blue
And green and brown
Your lack of boundaries meant
My days of peace and love were few
You were raised surrounded by antagonists
I know I would have been the same if I lived the life you lived
But you just have to understand that I am not like him
I'm not like her, I am my own, I'm not a goddamn kid

[Verse 3]
But some days a slight breeze or change of weather
Takes me back to the way things were
How I had suffered through a hot summer
Forty degrees and I'm sweating
Lying down head spinning
[Chorus]
Am I living?
Am I alive?
Am I breathing?
Can I survive?
It's a trial by fire
Oh, it's a trial by fire
Am I dreaming?
Am I awake?
Am I sleeping?
Oh, I'm so tired
It's a trial by fire
Oh, it's a trial by fire
Mmm

[Verse 4]
You don't handle things with grace
You throw your hands up to the sky and claim that life has failed you
And the reasoning behind your terrible disdain
I understand, but does that ease my pain?
No, I don't think so
You've been selfish and a narcissist
Put on my favourite dress
You'll make me take it off again
I can't pretend like I'm living in joy and bliss
And if I'm honest, I can't go on like this
[Verse 5]
You know I turned to you
Over a decade, I still turned to you
Your head was centered, mine was split in two
I was renowned for making sound, being too loud
Well, now I know it was not me, but you

[Chorus]
Am I living?
Am I alive?
Am I breathing?
Can I survive?
It's a trial by fire
Oh, it's a trial by fire
Am I dreaming?
Am I awake?
Am I sleeping?
Oh, I'm so tired
It's a trial by fire
Oh, it's a trial by fire
Am I living?
Am I alive?
Am I breathing?
Can I survive?
It's a trial by fire
Oh, it's a trial by fire
Am I dreaming?
Am I awake?
Am I sleeping?
Oh, I'm so tired
It's a trial by fire
Oh, it's a trial by fire
Oh-oh