Verse:
I could of just jumped. i should of and i would of/
But mikey always told me that i should just f**king get up//
So I spit up all these lyrics, like a story get it going/
They say it could be worse. but never ask me how im doing//
Im running in a circle, doing laps on these tracks/
Can't sleep can't eat i need to relax//
Got problems the weight on my shoulders keep tugging/
Its a message i dont know of and it just keeps bugging//
Can't say it with no words, but the feels keep pulling/
It ain't real, i should know it. I should just keep rolling//
Had to call the doc cause i was feeling so ill/
Made the beat stop, i ain't no buzzkill//
And i know i shouldn't do it, i can make my own choice/
They can't stand the thought, so they mute my voice//
I been trying to get some help but everybody goes further/
I dont need nobody i just need my brother//
I never use to pray. I never read the bible/
Now i gotta get stacking cause its all about survival//
Im in a dark spot. waiting for a light to shine/
Got a lighter make it brighter, all i need is time//
All I do is rhyme. theres too much on my mind/
Never had much but i can give you mine//
Said it would be better. and I can prove it to you later/
I do it for my brothers and i do it for my haters//
I motivate myself when i been talking to myself/
Well. either way it goes, i gotta do it by myself//
The only way to process is when im on the mic/
Im trying to make progress, everyday and every night//
Been thinking bout life, yeah, so i choose to fight/
I gotta be strong just like uncle mike//
See it but im blinded, depression. can't hide it/
This feels like im stranded, its rough i can't stand it//
But i won't let you down i got to think about the future/
Always use to push me harder. you were my teacher//
I can't do it all alone, but i guess i just have to/
Always will remember, im glad that i had you//
Right by my side everytime i felt down/
When i use come around you would want to hear my sound//
So i posted up quick, and i didn't even care/
We use to spit bars everytime i was there//
We walked around the block and told the people whats up/
We werent even flexing, we gave everyone a cup//
Showed em some bars and then they want to come/
We was always friendly, so we never acted dumb//
Told me to do right, now im going back to school/
Yeah i know im smart, i dont need to be cool//
I was always myself. they only knew the name/
I never said a word and they always said im lame//
My uncle always told me that practise makes perfect/
Sometimes it gets hard but he said that it'd be worth it//
So i took his word then i put it in my pocket/
I cherish those moments ima keep it like a locket//
Gone but not forgotten, i know that youll be watchin/
It all takes time but all i hear is tick tockin//
Im trying to keep walking, but my heads so low/
And ive been talking, like why'd you have to go//
Im feeling so alone, but i got it fasho/
They told me let it out, i dont even know//
Yelling at the sky i was asking for an answer/
Looking for a sign, at least a glance or//
A little bit of hope, cause i was feeling suicidal/
And i dont need dope i dont want to sip a bottle//
Dont tell me that you feel me, when you haven't walked a mile/
In my shoes maybe then you wouldn't even smile//
Its the pressure on my chest. can't seem to brush it off/
I been feeling like a mess. still can't believe hes gone//

For Michael 'Stackz' Fiddler