A sound as if my heart was beating
As if I took a deep breath
It's as if I can’t do anything
But I'm just grateful for the things I have
Actually, at night when everyone's asleep
I blame myself one more time
It’s selfish but one more time
I've never beat myself

I don't know how to be thankful
I can't even suppress my anger
Sometimes I kill, and step on
And torment myself
I can't stand it, in this restless night
Although you see me suffering
I don't get get a pat
Am I me inside my head?
While I say “let's endure it, I have to write more
Even just another line”
I pick up a pen and on paper
I'm boring a hole

I want to stop looking the ceiling that has no meaning
I want to go back
I want to hug my past self
I say “it was hard” and I want to go back
Back in the day I want to sing a song
I take a step and get up again
I want to try standing honorably
Yeah every day
Can’t be good but it’s okay
If I have my voice
The things that hurt me today
Will make me smile tomorrow
I fell down but in the end
I'll end up getting up again
I made myself
Tear by tear
And I’ll walk step by step
I'll just walk

When I'm with other people
Is that person really me?
Or when I'm alone
Is that person really me?
I said “it’s tough”
And “I'm not cut out for this”
Was winning once and pretending i'm an adult
A mistake?
Everyone's been pressuring me

Yeah, yeah, not even I
Can understand myself
It will all be
For my own good
Why on earth can't you overcome it
Although you see me crying
You don't hug me
What's unfair about it
Shut up and like always
Rap from your place
Don't act like a kid
Must be the age for it but
I know you're useless
The things that hurt me today
Will make me smile tomorrow
I fell down but in the end
I'll end up getting up again
I made myself
Tear by tear
And I'll walk step by step
I'll just walk

Now I want to understand myself
Even if everyone turned their backs
I want to walk
Because I have music I'm alive
I'm in a place
Where I can't say it
I know, even so until the end
I want to keep living and breathing here
I want to breathe, I want to breathe
I want to rest