[Verse 1]
I got this feeling in my gut that I'll never fall in love
Yeah, it's deep-rooted in my head that I'll never be enough
I'll end up losing all my friends 'cause I don't make time for them
It's not deliberate, I swear
And I'm so scared that I'll grow old and have nothin' to show
I wasted every minute, and my brain, it overflows
And now I'm sittin' on the floor in my apartment
Existential crisis, definitely not my finest

[Pre-Chorus]
Don't know why this shit keeps happenin' to me, yeah
Got intrusive thoughts that don't make it too easy
Everythin' that's tellin' me what to bеlieve in
It's losin' meanin', God

[Chorus]
You'rе lookin' so happy, all that I can't be
But if I could do better, I would
It's out of my system, I've been conditioned
To find out the worst and it's good
'Cause everything I've ever loved, everything I've tried to trust
Ends up just lettin' me down, call it bad luck
Glad that you're happy, want it so badly
But I don't fuckin' know, it's not sunshine and rainbows
[Verse 2]
And every time I walk into a room, choke on the air
And on the inside questioning why I am even there
Oh, I wish that I was good at all the small talk
But it's just a lot of scars, what the hell is small talk?

[Pre-Chorus]
Don't know why this shit keeps happenin' to me, yeah
Got intrusive thoughts that don't make it too easy
Everythin' that's tellin' me what to believe in
It's losin' meanin', God

[Chorus]
You're lookin' so happy, all that I can't be
But if I could do better, I would
It's out of my system, I've been conditioned
To find out the worst and it's good
'Cause everything I've ever loved, everything I've tried to trust
Ends up just lettin' me down, call it bad luck
Glad that you're happy, want it so badly
But I don't fuckin' know, it's not sunshine and rainbows

[Bridge]
A perfect some kind of dream
Doesn't make sense to me
No, it doesn't work well with me, oh, oh, oh-oh
Takin' it so cautiously
'Cause shit has never been what it seems
No it never works well with me, no, no
[Chorus]
You're lookin' so happy, all that I can't be
But if I could do better, I would
It's out of my system, I've been conditioned
To find out the worst and it's good
'Cause everything I've ever loved, everything I've tried to trust
Ends up just lettin' me down, call it bad luck
Glad that you're happy, want it so badly
But I don't fuckin' know, it's not sunshine and rainbows