Lyrics from TikTok live & Poster

Think I've been lying to myself, wondering how it could've been, struggling to keep it in
See eye-to-eye with something new
'Cause I can't keep chasing it when I was only just a kid
Waiting for you to tie my shoes
It's all gone loose and the screws are with my old man
He's got nothing to lose but to ruin my plans
Always wondered how you feel [?]
Trying to trust [?]
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