[Verse 1]
I'm at the point where anyone I know just can't be trusted
I been conditioned by vicious cycles of family grudges
Goddamn it sucks when you sink in the shoes you standing up in
So then you pray to God, hoping his blessing hands will rush in
And maybe provide some guidance towards the source of light
And the Heavenly doors divide to eliminate wars inside of my own head
My life's a battlefield where most just don't tread
This dark cloud's got me discouraged, all of my hope fled
Anger's revved up like a moped circling blocks
Pressure's on urging to pop, no reversing the plot
You know how many n***as I want to send to church in a box?
You know how many bitches I done dated that turned into thots?
Plenty, no doubt
Too many to count
Hoes try'na empty accounts
They itching for clout
They'll piss on your crown
I'm clearly injured with no band-aid so I take the wound
Next time I trust myself instead of putting faith in you
[Chorus]
And that's the only way it's gon' be
I ain't got too many homies
You know me
This should all be good but it ain't right now
I wish I could hit pause, hold up, time out
And that's the only way it's gon' be
These cold nights are creeping on me
It's lonely
This should all be good but it ain't right now
I wish I could hit pause, hold up, time out
Time out
[Verse 2]
If I could go back to all of my past mistakes
I would just mash the brakes
You live and you learn, it burns
If that's the case then this is the moment that I climb from the casket
And I rise through the ashes
And I find in the passion
Cause my time isn't passing
No time soon
Even though I'm bruised I'm tryna reach greatness
And I hope I do, this low-life blues
Is tryna creep on me, so I proceed with both eyes glued
Wide open, I must thrive, you n***as know my roots
Money can buy a lot of things, but it don't buy truth
It took me years to find this shit out, had my whole mind spooked
So now I'm try'na dig myself up out a hole I put myself in
For years I lived inside of Hell's den, wonder who else been?
It's like my soul is melting and being poured in a witches pot
And I just sit and watch as, all of my riches rot
Is this real?
Or maybe I'm perceiving reality wrong
Can't even recognize myself 'cause my sanity's gone
[Chorus]
And that's the only way it's gon' be
I ain't got too many homies
You know me
This should all be good but it ain't right now
I wish I could hit pause, hold up, time out
And that's the only way it's gon' be
These cold nights are creeping on me
It's lonely
This should all be good but it ain't right now
I wish I could hit pause, hold up, time out
Time out