[Verse]
When I be off of the lean it be easy for me to tell you how I feel
It done been too many times I ain't feel like it working, I'm just bein' real
Fucked up conscious, damage off Roxys
I rely on pills, just keepin' it real
Bangin' my steel, if I die Ima go with a kill
Pickin' my partna's fresh off of a drill, you don't think it was a drill
Why God, my mind goin' blank
Is it cause I'm high off drank
Give it all up for Brenda, fuck this fame
Feel like you don't hear me when I call yo' name
Smokin' [?] cause my feelings drain
93 in my tank propane
I'll never treat my brother like stains
Lost soul when I came in the game
I'on think this shit would change me man (no ion think this shit would change me)
Look, huh
You fucked up my head when you did what you did
If I had died would you would have had slid, yeah
You would think a n***a blood gang, when you see these scars up on my wrist
Baby, these pain cuts
I ain't suicidal but sometimes I feel like I'm they kid, yeah
Hide my pain with blood diamonds
I spent 500 this year and I'm still poppin'
I know my n***as gon' kill 'bout me
Or at least I think they won't leave me rottin'
I seen this shit get real slimy, real trauma
I spent my last dollar, poppin' bonds for my n***as
But that's how that go and they be my fuckin' shottas
When the whole world turn they back on me, who the fuck gon' be with me
I just seen a good girl turn bad on me, but that's just my choice of picking
I done seen my granny do crack by me, it's a wicked world that we live in
I done seen my n***a turn his back on me, when all envisioned of us livin'
But my heart so big and that's just my conscious, still got love for you n***a
This a message to my lil' brother KayB, just know it's up for you n***a
Feel sometimes I only got you
I don't know what to do I'm a fucked up lil dude