Things are crazy lately
Haven't been myself down on the daily
Neck deep digging till I'm weak
The devil's on my shoulders while I'm at his feet
Stressed out like 24/7
Can't get a grip on my aggression
This tension never lessens
This is my depression session
Gripped tight with old wounds
Mouth shut, silenced and reduced
This trauma acts like a noose
That binds closer and closer the more that I move
And what do I do?
This rage that I feel results from abuse
And what do I do?
It's been years and you still refuse thе truth
There's no closure
With thе pain that stems
From my own anger
Or my wish for revenge
You think you've gotten out
But then they throw you back in
There's so much I can't say
So much that I can't undo
You think I wished for this?
Like I wanted to be abused
Fuck you
For blaming me for all of your mistakes
You've played the victim for far too long
While I burned at the stake
And what do I do?
This rage that I feel results from abuse
And what do I do?
I'm peeling at the flesh cause there's nothing to lose
There's no closure
With the pain that stems
From my own anger
Or my wish for revenge
You think you've gotten out
But then they throw you back in
There's no closure
With the pain that stems
From my own anger
Or my wish for revenge
You think you've gotten out
But then they throw you back in
You put the pressure on me to speak
While you sulked in your own misery
You hate yourself and you blame me
So in hell we'll both take a seat
I'll be the fucking devil if that's what you want me to be
I'll be the fucking devil if that's all you want from me
Just to let me be
I'll be the goddamned devil motherfucker
I'll be the goddamned devil if that's what you want from me