Jaded and drained, hollow and chained
To loss and heartbreak, I’m not the same
We hurt ourselves on the outside
To snuff what constantly kills us on the inside
I’m still stuck in this rut
Existing in that in between
Wishing I wasn’t so empty
Coming apart from the seams

Everything gets so tedious, it always feels the same
The older I get, the lower I sink, and I don’t think that’ll change
So tired of wasting my efforts, attempting to blend in
I don’t belong here, and maybe I never did

Does growing up have to feel like this
Will I ever get back what I missed?
Self medicate to help me forget, I’ve made my bed and I’ll die in it

I shouldn’t have worn my heart on my sleeve
I shouldn’t have kept you so close to me

I just need space
Anger takes shape

You’re a memory I wish I could erase