Am i deserving of all this happy times Do i really deserve it

All this healing time

I feel like i dont really do I ruined someones life Im a bad person I dont deserve to smile

When i made someone cry I feel like my body is wrapped in thorns

I dont deserve the roses Cause i treated someone wrong Im really really sorry

I should be left broke and alone

I dont deserve all this healing I dont deserve all this happiness When i destroyed someones hope

I dont know what im feeling

But im feeling very broke I can feel my lungs filling

I can feel myself drowning into a hole

I can't escape this feeling