[Verse 1]
That hoodie was the best thing to happen to me
Like the one thing that you salvage from a house fire
When you drop me at her house 'cause i'm just too much to deal with
I'm the last kid that should be around a lighter
I'm knocking on her door with the DS still on
She lets me in and starts to ask what's wrong
But when i confide in her i tear apart the earth
There's somebody who has it ten times worse
Time and time again i tried to make some friеnds
And they all look so much older than me
Maybе it's right under your nose, or just undiagnosed
But the kids said that there's something wrong with me

[Chorus]
And sometimes the smoke smells good
Leave the window open when it's freezing cold, i know
When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show
I ditched you guys and died, lay in the snow

[Verse 2]
Spent too many nights pinching my sides
Wondering if i'm living in a dream
When i don't know who to ask:
"i think that i'll just pass, like, maybe i'll just figure it out myself"
Butterflies inside me, they turn into tapeworms
And i stay awake 'till my stomach hurts
So when it's 4:00 AM and i can't eat anything
I'll wake up too late and get what i deserve
And i know i told you two weeks, but it's been seventeen years
And every time i sing, they close their ears
It's all in my head, it's cheesy but it's true
If i could, i'd blame it all on you
Sometimes i try to talk and nothing comes out
And most of my memories aren't how they really were
I'm slipping on a line, i'm confused all the time
When you go to claim your bags, don't claim what's mine
[Chorus]
And sometimes the smoke smells good
Leave the window open when it's freezing cold, i know
When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show
I ditched you guys and died, lay in the snow

[Verse 3}
I had this funny dream that i moved to bombay beach
And i'm never seen or heard from again
Won't have to watch for sharks, swimming in the salton sea
Hope the chemicals will finish the job
And i've been performing poorly, but it's so hard to be honest
She's been threatening that i go get some help
When i picture your face, it comes up as someone else
Someone who's treated me the same way