Wake to my life, so pointless in every way
I'll try to make sense of the pain
Feeling alright for a moment, but then it’s gone
I can't figure out how to stay

Fear in my gut, in my chest, in my fingertips
I could cry about everything
Fear in the way, to the front, closing all the doors
I thought I could face the day

Stop what I'm doing
And stare at my legs again
I can’t get you out of my mind
Dancing around, right there
Just out of reach
Your beautiful flashes of light

I call a friend, say I'm looping again
They don't know what to say this time
I call my mom, say I can't carry on
But she wants me to keep on trying