[Verse: Illmac]
One foot in the door, one step in the grave
Ten toes in the soil, tryna weather the rain
And what’s left’ll remain
Love taught me what looks good to you could be bad for you like, sunsets in LA
It’s raining cats and dogs, owe a lifeline to bro
He gave a shot, looking back, wasn’t my time to go
Had to let some walls down, my inner light shine and glow
Listen to old shit like, that was lifetimes ago
In NY they say the dude wild nice
Rep my hometown right but had to move out twice
The life of the parties, I give the luau life
Got the sauce like vindaloo with the pilau rice
In the land of the brave, home of the free, trapped in a cage
33 years under the sun, no time to lamp in the shade
Young OG, back in the day read Goosebumps, now I get ‘em, when they dance on my grave
At this point it’s reckless
Get yourself a new circle if your boys are jealous
This the choice I’m left with
We compare ourselves to others then avoid reflection
Gotta stop using people, we unimpressed with as a point of reference
The feeling’s different now they, tryna figure out
I’m married to the game but maintain independence how I’m
Between generations like J. Cole, the middle child
Talk to my inner child like what’s good, it’s been a while
Someone told me once, your 20’s for having fun
30’s for finding self and, 40’s for getting rich
I added tools to my belt and asked myself, you wanna be a jack-of-all-trades or an ace within your niche
Shit, remember trimming in the sticks
Negotiating five-figure flips while I dig a ditch
I used to sit and bitch then I traded things I blamed before for things I’m grateful toward, that’s a bigger list
Gotta go through dark to get to light
Family passes, losses left and right
Replaced by inner demons that haunt my head at night
Adapting to the loss of those we love the most, a consequence of life
I don’t feel it I ain’t associated wit’ it
Gotta know the pain and live it
I wrote this next to ocean waves, where the solar rays are vivid
So while they throwing shade I’m in it, hold up wait a minute
I felt a gap between us, not even the Golden Gate could bridge it
Look, don’t cross my mind that’s a lonely place to visit
This chip on my shoulder blade like a boulder’s weight, I lift it
Knowing the work started where the motivation finished
Ill